So, 100 napkins, 10 more aprons and 12 tote bags later and I can’t wait to do more! I am literally buzzing (if you have ever used a sewing machine, you’ll know what I mean).
I’ve been doing a lot of reflection and looking forward recently, and although I should be utterly freaking out, I’m really excited about what the future holds.
I should explain myself. I’m about to be made officially redundant (the end of this month). I’ve made my way nicely through a three year contract working for a charity and now I’m coming to the end. I can’t find a job and I’m not entirely sure I want to, in fact, I don’t…yeah, I don’t want a job, not the traditional kind at the moment anyway.
Yesterday I heard a great thing on the radio, ‘crisis’ and ‘opportunity’ is the same word in chinese. This pretty much sums up what I’m going through at the moment. I could be very worried about my lack of ability to pay the mortgage and buy the food, and yes, there is a certain element of that weighing on my mind. To be honest though, after a bit of a manic period I’m pretty peaceful with my situation. In the past three years I have just about learnt to not waste my time worrying about my given situation and beating myself up about it, but doing something about it and most importantly, learning from it. I believe that everything that happened to us, good or bad, makes us who we are, and that’s a pretty cool thing.
I must make it very clear that I haven’t come to this conclusion on my own. Recent events and amazing, beautiful, supportive and patient friends and mentors in my life have really helped (sometimes forced) me to see it. One thing I’m not great with is outward displays of emotion or physical contact, but I really hope those people know who they are. Of course, one of those people is Ross and his love and support is truly second to none.
So, the next few months making and selling is not just about paying the bills, but following the path that I, we, want to and seeing where it takes us. Part of that has already meant making connections with Some great people. This week, I have shared a brownie recipe with another artist from California, Polychrome Palace and celebrated the re-opening of an Etsy shop with a fellow sewer, Sew Serious, from Denver, USA. How cool is that? The magic of the net!
So, it all seems a bit big and scary and impossible at the moment but as Walter Elias Disney once said, ‘It’s kind of fun to do the impossible’.
Until next time…
Tab, Ross, Boswell and Bessie.